Tis morning.. finally i have to face the fact that it's not possible to be too ambitious and hold 2 projects at the same time..

Have been talking to J about this when was told that this new proj that i am handling will be rolled out this yr.. more confirmed when the consultant agreed to the schedule that my mgr proposed to them.. J and I decide that i will not reject the task if the management decides that they want me to do it.. i think i take it more objective than i thought i would..

To be selfish, i could have taken both and let my other team mates help me thru.. but i thought i need to let the manager know that these are the things that we need to do for the new proj.. it will be too much to accomplish.. so u to decide how u want to segregate..

So i guess that is the decision.. we need to face the fact that it is not possible to cope with 2 proj with the same timeline.. shld i be glad that i do not have to make the decision to let go? becos she break it to me that she feels that the new proj will definitely need to go and so she will assign to another person the old proj.. unless i want to do it, she will reassign.. guess it's less difficult for me this way..

so shock abt this big change that i have to tell someone.. frantically approached jas.. she shared her experience of letting go of her 'baby' and it's hard.. told her that i think i'm fine and cos i suggested that i still help my teammate who will take over.. actually my preference will be to have 2 person to do it.. that is what i told J when we were talking..

so the whole day, everyone was feeling very unsettled with this big change.. i told my teammate that he will be able to cope.. the proj team always work as a team and he wun be too stressed.. i'm not sad, neither am i happy.. jus mixed feelings bah.. is that how mag feel when she had to go? hahahahahha.....

jus hope that this is for the better.. would i then have to delinguish my 'trade is me' 'i am trade' title? hahahha =)