Thanks to frens who are so so supportive toward my new challenge at work.. it's tough but it's so heartwarming to rec' messages, comments and emails asking abt me and encouraging words..

I learnt to handle things better through this experience.. and I learnt alot working with a whole new set of pple.. friendly and positive relationship is always my motto towards every success..

One of my consultants became my 'chat' mate and she really is supportive.. words of assurance.. really jus let me rest assure or at least not think to much into it for awhile..

On Tues, my boss seems to take in the view that we may not make it and supported to the suggestion of delaying it.. Mixed feeling.. and at the same time overwhelmed by the fact that I wanna make everyone feel comfortable and lessen my own discomfort of guilt.. the word 'inefficient' came out of my mouth when I talk to my senior abt myself.. think she din hear it.. and i really regret saying such thing abt myself..

Cos I really really feel that I did well.. no regret.. Perhaps J's words jus kept my own pride low.. that perhaps being a libra, I always feel that i am perfect.. That's why I feel that perhaps I may not have done well enuf..

But after talking to my senior and after today's meeting, I earn my self-worth.. It is clearly not my fault or my teammates' inefficiency.. But there are to much errors for the consultants to fix in time.. I have done what I can do.. This past month, this is the only thought I have.. Whatever gonna happen .. whether it's go or no go, I just do my best.. even if means to go back to work after course.. or coming to work when I sick.. coming back on wkends or even holidays.. I did my best..

In this afternoon's meeting, my big boss decided that we give it another go.. Me and my teammate is really happy abt the decision.. I was there with my boss. I'm the only thrilled one to hear that he's still for it.. Frankly, I still am very hopeful until my boss decision on tues.. Then I realised.. It is both relieve and disappointment and lost that I felt..

All these.. J's part of it.. For the past wks, he compromise to my working hrs.. took care of my health and din mind sending me to work early sat and pick me after work.. wait for me for dinners.. all the support and comfort and the impt hugs when I was so upset after what happen with fren and work on tues.. And understanding every bit of my work and decisions.. SO sweet to suggest I go back to my parents place and he come over to join me and go back home early next morning...

Thanks dear.. sorry I can't take spend more time with u nxt mth..