Pregnancy and labour have not been too difficult for me though..

Exactly 40 weeks of pregnancy, I'm still ok.. Up till the day when my waterbag breaks, everything has been cool.. Still rem when we parked the car opposite tmc and I even climbed the overhead bridge to get across to tmc.. No contraction at all and I needed a drip to speed up the process.. After 2hrs, I start to feel real contraction and opt for epidural as I know that I can't take this pain for hours.. Epidural came 20mins later.. I dilate from 4cm to 10cm in an hour and am pushing before my gynae reached.. And there, Ezanne has arrived!

Parenthood has not been easy for me..

Probably becos I din try to learn enuf on what to expect with a newborn.. I'm not a prepared mummy.. Breastfeeding wasn't smooth.. Low supply with Ezanne sleeping halfway.. we end up having problem of hungers, cries, stress and tiredness.. I asked frens and cousins how it's like and they are very helpful.. But in the end, I decided to express for her.. as long as she got the goodness of breastmilk and dun suffer frm hungers and cries..

It's not as simple too.. I struggle feeling that I cannot provide her enuf.. Thought I could have set into slight depression then.. a lot of worries and not enuf rest and sleep.. pple keep telling me to rest.. which even these thoughtful words give me pressure.. I'm supposed to rest and express every few hrs.. How am I going to do all these at the same time..

On my birthday, it has not been the greatest birthday for me actually eventhough I have Ezanne with me.. I don't want anything at that point.. J finished work late but still went to get me a cake.. It's so bad that I din even wanna cut the cake or do anything.. Din wanna disappoint J, I asked him to get the cake.. my mum went back that nite.. so it's just 3 of us and the maid outside.. J lit the candle and brought the cake in.. at that moment, I was reall touched.. all the stress seems to disappear.. It's a birthday that I will rem..

Now, Ezanne seems to be different every morning I look at her when I bath her.. she's still an active little one who dun give mummy time to rest.. Still expressing breastmilk for her though it's still tiring.. Hope things will look up.. Looking forward to Ezanne's full month celebration this sunday.. it's her big day..! Then we will move over to my in law place for a month or so.. Jus hope everything goes well too..

With Ezanne, everyone's lifestyle changed.. Cos we all love her so much =)

Ezanne 1 week old

Ezanne at week 3