Throughout the 10 mths of pregnancy, daddy has been extremely hardworking to take on all the hsework at home.. This little one has always been small no matter how much durian I tried to eat. And she chose to be straight up from the beginning till the end and therefore, we gotta sch for caserean on 8 Oct. That was the last day that gynae proposed to us.. we tried to give her more time to change her mind and head down..

But this little one has her own plan to see the world.. After our dinner and settling all the things for the big day, I went to bed as usual.. But suddenly, I felt a kick and then noticed that the waterbag has burst.. Calmly, I checked to confirm and called out for J. He's excited and quickly said, Ok let's go to the hospital now.

When my waterbag breaks when I had Ezanne, he was calmer then.. He could get dinner while I bath before we head for the hospital and even climbed up the overhead bridge at the hospital.. He's definitely more anxious this time.. Well, I was too cos it's a full burst rather than jus bag break..

In 15mins, we reached the hospital.. It's 11.20pm. I have called the hospital to get them ready and to inform my gynae.. To know that I'm 4cm dilated and starting to feel some contraction.. It's probably is the walking and chasing at cold storage after dinner that hastened the labour.

Gynae did a last check that the bb still hasn't turn and confirmed a c-section immediately.. Was pushed to the operating threatre and that was when I started to shiver and fear.. it's scary there.. I then had m dose of epidural and I started to shiver even more.. later did I know that it's a side effect of epidural..

When finally came in with my gynae, he assured me that it's ok.. but i whispered to him that I'm really scared.. At that moment, I so wanted to back out.. Gynae was assuring..  Within minutes, she said she's gonna pull the bb out.. Oh my, I was totally lost for words..

J looked over and he saw the bb. Hmm, his 2nd time seeing the purplish bb and I guessed he's braver than many daddy.. then the photo taking.. haa.. I'm jus thinking.. is this over.. I wanna get out of here..

The nurse carried the bb to me.. the first time I held her.. I din have the urge to carry her longer at that moment though.. I believe it has something to do with mother instinct.. at least that what I see in animal planet. haa.... that is why mother rabbits bite their bb, some animals even trampled their bb.. that short while of 'unexplained rejection'.. although the feeling was jus moments.. I longed to see my bb after that..

That was how our bb Janelle chose to see the world.. hours ahead than our scheduled c-section. Well, I sort of expected and am happy that we eventually dun have to choose her birthday for her. But she decided to say hello on the same day by her own choice =)

Happy Birthday, Janelle Yun Xin =)